Now I can say it officially… I’m going to Estonia in October!
The EVS project HORIZON has been approved and now it’s the time for me to prepare. I have some more time to think things through – mental preparation seems to me the most important part of getting ready to leave as I have no idea what I can expect (apart from cultural shock). To get more solid information, I’m waiting for pre-departure training in Kraków on 20th of July. Hopefully it will provide me with more real picture of EVS itself, for reading info kit thousands of times doesn’t get me any nearer, the picture is still blurred and foggy. Maybe it’s also the matter of time – the activity is planned to start in October and loads of things can happen until then (bear in mind my uncontested luck to accidentally get injured just before my big life moments).
This is a real challenge for me – introverted, anxious and quiet girl – to be in the middle of estonian reality, all alone by myself. I’d say, that’s perfect conditions to get myself into another mental breakdown lol. Let’s not overthink this, then.
Also, by deciding to go for it and join EVS project, I’m leaving stability – very good job (4 jobs, actually) in my profession field. I’m jumping into the depths of uncertainty instead of progressing my professional position which I have sketched over the past year. And doing so, I am constantly asking myself: what the hell is this? What’s pushing me? And what lets me think this is a good idea to volunteer abroad while I have well-paid, stable jobs guaranteed here in Poland?
I do not know the answers and I’ll let myself wonder why for another couple months – until some „real life” preparation will take place. Actually, come on, getting in control of my anxious stream of conscioussness about the whole thing IS real life preparation…
And this blog is going to be the record of my hopes, expectations and struggles throughout my EVS experience.